sixth installment
Excerpt:
.... What I know about what happened after I left her at work, and for that matter most of everything that follows, comes mostly from what Bob told me. When Karen confessed she put the emphasis on the first events, when Mr. Miller seduced her, as she saw it. How she succumbed and changed after that or because of things he made her do, how she surrendered to what he wanted, she could not admit to; she preserved in this way her own strange sense of innocent shame, although in fact she seemed to relish the emotion of her shame as much as the degrading perversions that she permitted them to do to her. The emotions she felt in either her sexual humiliation or embarrassment or her sexual abandonment were all indistinguishable to her, or rather they were all the same compulsion. I am certain it was her own sexual compulsions that they keenly exploited, seeing them so abjectly revealed by her sexual surrender. They were drawn to her like a pack of slavering dogs to a wanton b*tch in heat, her swollen c*nt dripping with her rut.
I do not mean any of this bitterly. She did not know what she was doing really. I think something broke inside her. Her sexual repression simply burst and she was overwhelmed by her feelings. And she insisted in the end upon the simple naiveté that she only wanted some one to love her, and that is why she did what they wanted. You can believe what you want.
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