"Given the . ... sacrifices some on this board have made . . ."
What sacrifices? No one helped me PAY for my trip, offered me lodging, helped me obtain a bike, took any personal risks. No "I" made all the sacrifices and took ALL the risks. I don't OWE anyone ANYTHING - period!
Yes, I was wrong not to make a better decision as to how to handle this thing but as I see it I've already screwed my credibility beyond repair. I have apologized and it was sincere. Anything more will only perpetuate this misery and detract from the otherwise friendly atmosphere that this place seems to stand for.
Personally the mods should close this thread and ya'll should move on. At this point nothing more can be gained. Some will believe, some won't and some will care less. No one is a martyr here certainly none of the arm chair lurkers who only want to add to my humiliation. "I" know what I did last year and so do a handful of others that were there with me and suported me on my ride. Most of the scenarios depicted on this board are only fantasies that exist in the Ether we call cyberspace. I am real person with real feelings and real issues in my life that I have to deal with. Walk a mile in my flip flops and see what it is like.
Thanks for those who pm'd me tonight with their support and thanks to you Klondike for everything. Thanks also for saying that I write like a girl. I have been told that I throw a ball like one too.
As far as I'm concerned, it is finished.
Torre
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