I am probably a bit weird but I have had similar thoughts. I am also probably odd in that I almost never masturbate unless I am away from my wife for multiple days but just enjoy viewing pictures of naked women. I have felt weird about it before but gotten over it. The only one I have not been able to get over are the photos I found of my dead aunts. The one I didn't really know from the 40's and 50's was not as weird but the one I was close to that were more explicit weirded me out to the point that I got rid of them. It just felt wrong. I also have wondered if there is an afterlife and if so, can those in the afterlife see what is happening on earth. If so, can they see that I am viewing their pictures? That is just another odd thought I have had that is related to this topic.
Then again I am nostalgic. I have close to 300 firearms dating back to the Civil War and every major conflict through Viatnam as part of my collection. Sometimes I get a chill handling or firing an old weapon and wondering the history of it and the people who have used it. Last weekend I took out and shot two Civil War weapons. One was a union marked calvary carbine. The other was a confederate marked three band enfield. They could have been aimed at each other at some point in history. I know many of my weapons have been used to take lives. It gives me a chill but in a way it honors them too to think of them. One that I actually know a little of the history of is a Japanese Nambu pistol that my grandpa took off a Japanese officer he killed with his knife during WWII. It still has three bullets in the magazine that were in there when he took it. I have the knife he used too which I framed with the gun. He claimed he killed eight Japanese with that knife.
Full circle to the original question, you have to decide what is right for you and what you can sleep with. Only you can make that decision.
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