[Ival]

When my wife was young she was gawky and gangly and very shy but as she got older she started to blossom into a beautiful and sexy woman. By the time she was 18 she was attracting the attention of older men and she didn't know how to handle it. She had always been unsure of herself and very insecure so this attention was both exciting and frightening. She had been taught to respect older people and to submit to their guidance and so when her neighbor (a married man over twice her age and a good friend of the family) approached her, she had no understanding of how to act and what to do. She was both flattered and apprehensive but she finally submitted to his advances and had sex with him several times over the next year. Her second experience with a man was with the church minister (another married man older than her father) with whom she had sex several times. Over the next several years she experienced sex with a number of married men including one of her college professors. She was thrilled and flattered that these men found her attractive and was sexually aroused by their attention but she also knew that what she was doing was improper and sinful. By the time she finally quit letting married men exploit her and started dating men her own age, she was very experienced in sexual matters including fellatio, anal sex and any other sexual perversion that you can imagine. These experiences left her with lot of guilt but also some satisfaction knowing that she was able to have this effect on men. I think that she looks back on these encounters with guilt but also some fondness and even excitement and pride.