[camoj]

So last night I went to a friends birthday BBQ.

It was a pretty small group of about 10 people, some who I've met once or twice before and a few I've known for years. Once couple who were there, I've met the husband a few times but have known his wife for a lot longer (we'll call him Pete and her Jane). I've always had a bit of a crush on her, she's rather cute, a couple of years older than me in her mid-late 40's standing only about 5'4, dark blonde hair a little rounded with a fabulous rack.

The drinks were going down very well and everyone was pretty loose and having a great time. The BBQ was being held in/around the garage under the house and Jane and one other friend were the only females there, the rest was a mixed collection of bikers, metal heads truck drivers (Pete is a truck driver) and a couple of desk professionals like myself.

Jane and myself have always been a little flirty over the years but nothing you could pin down to even suggest she shared my interest in her. Cut to about 1-2am and I had gone upstairs to the house to use the toilet. As I came out of the bathroom, Jane was standing in the hall (like she was waiting to use it next). Me and her had already shared about 3 bottles of wine over the evening as well as several shots etc, so it's reasonable to say we were both pretty smashed.

As I went to pass her in the hall we were facing each other and I stopped to see how she was travelling, she leaned in really close and held me while saying she is going into the spare room (nodding towards it) for a little lay down to which I jokingly called her "soft". I got this feeling like it was almost an invitation.. surly not.

I continued back to the party but soon enough needed to drain the snake again so headed back upstairs. The spare room door was slightly ajar and I could see she was indeed in the bed there (still clothed) and I pushed through the door to give her some shit saying "You were not kidding about the lay down?" At this stage she beckoned me over to the bed and I sat on the edge to chat. The next bit is a bit of a blur, but almost immediately we were locked in an extremely passionate kissing session, both our breathing was rapid and in any other circumstance I have no doubt we'd have been ripping clothes off and making a mess.

Somewhere mid-snog I pulled away and said "Hang on, what about Pete? Are you guys 'Open' or 'Closed' in your marriage?", she replied 'Open' and I felt a little better, but still, it was strange because her hubby (big truck driver guy) was downstairs as well as all the other guests. She told me she'd been wanting this for a long time and I had to confirm the same. She then said I should climb into the bed for a while.

I'd love to have done exactly that but I didn't - it took every ounce of will power to break from the embrace an say "not this time" (there were just too many variables at play). I did see her hubby and the host check in on her later, and not too long after, everyone left and I grabbed an Uber back to the other friends house where I was staying the night (she was the other chick at the party, but had already left before me)... here's where it get's a little weird.

When I got back to my friends house, she was still up and having another drink and a smoke before bed. I joined her and she immediately started quizzing me saying "What was all that about?". I was pretty confused and said "What do you mean?". She went on to say that the host and Pete had pretty much ushered her out the door, when she sad "What about Camo" expecting me to ride home with her, Pete had apparently said, don't worry about him, he's staying (I didn't). The sort of blew me away, was her hubby setting me up to spend the night with his wife, or was I about to wind up in a shallow grave?

In the morning I exchanged a few messages with Jane during which she said don't worry, Pete knows and he's fine. She also thanked me for not climbing into the bed even though she wanted me too, and said it was the right decision. She complemented me as a great kisser and I said the same as well was the fact that it was very hard to not take it further and I'd love to explore were the lines are (and how to cross them - haha). She agreed saying there was no rush, we'll see what the future holds.

All in all, very exciting to think that after years of crushing on her, I've now had that experience and potential for more. I guess we'll see what happens in the future.