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Originally Posted by Loretta 1976
Of late I have noticed that I feel anxious most of the time...I feel like I am always walking on eggshells around him so we don't have another argument about something.
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Assuming that this is in fact non-fiction, it sounds like you are trapped by fear in your life; about this woman, your husband, and most any issue. You're staying in an untenable, unacceptable present because you are afraid of the future - no matter what happens, you will survive it, and only by going through some difficult next step(s) will you be able to change your circumstances. Without telling your hubby or recording the AA session or slapping your gropist or doing SOMETHING that feels drastic to you (but is what any of the rest of us would do) you won't get out of this endless loop of a prison.
I don't know what to think about the drinking and DUIs - something sounds fishy there, too. But it's not important to the story about letting yourself be groped or identified as the chicken on the bottom of the pecking order. Somehow you signal to other people that you're a doormat, and they're acting on it, including your husband who is abusive in his moods and threats and attitude.
I vote with H_P who says send us a "proof of life" pic. As a tall curvy mixed-race milf, we'll be kind, I promise you!
But this reads like a humiliation fap-story...