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Originally Posted by Gnome72141
I said, "Can you still do a handstand?" She said, "Yep." I said, "Can you do one now?"...
In the morning, she was up first and in bed looking at her phone. As soon as I woke up, she started going on and on about how she was so lonely living alone and hadn't dated anyone in almost 10 years since there is no one around in her town to date and how she wants to move to the city just to find someone (she calls men "boys" though and it was really annoying), and she just went on and on...
Anyway, after talking and her crying about her loneliness (I did feel super badly for her), I told her I was going to take a shower. So, I took a shower and walked back to the room in just a towel. She was still in bed. I removed the towel and dried off and let her look at my dangling cock as much as she wanted. I got hard from her looking, and I turned around so she couldn't see. She said, "You are such a tease! You let me see that thing and I can't do anything with it!" I told her that I wasn't trying to tease her. I turned back around and let her look more, and I was still hard...
She came out of the shower, and then took her towel off and said, "I can tease you, too, then." She stood there naked and she said, "This is super weird huh?" Then I said, "No, nudists are naked around each other all the time. Friends, families, siblings, cousins. It's only weird if we make it weird."...
She said, "I bet I can make it weird. You know how we took a shower in that hotel room a few months ago or whatever? Well, I masturbate thinking about that almost every time I am in the shower. So, is THAT weird?" I said, "I don't think it's weird because I think it's amazing you are comfortable telling me that." (But I did think it was super weird that she told me and I started feeling really, really awkward just then). Then she said, "Please don't tell anyone that." I said I wouldn't...
I watched her get dressed in a heavy sweater, no bra, and pink underwear and jeans, and mismatched socks like a 14yo, and despite just seeing her beautiful body naked, seeing her in mismatched socks like a kid made me cringe inside...
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I appreciate you sharing these tales, but I'm uncomfortable with how you're treating your cousin.
You clearly engage her on these trips and encourage her to be nude, but you also profess to be "uncomfortable" about thinking of her sexually. I think you're toying with her and being cruel - she clearly is into you and wants your sexual attention - she's revealed herself to be lonely and seeking contact, and yet you pretend that it's strange she feels this way. I think you're egging her on, and yet punishing her for some reason by not giving her what she wants. I don't understand your reluctance to be with her, but that's your choice and your right. But if you don't want to touch or please her, then you shouldn't get into these situations where you know she will be worked up with no release.
I think you should decide what you want out of your relationship with her (see her naked, fuck her, not see her at all, etc) and then talk directly to her about what you want and what you don't. She's laid it all out for you and it's your responsibility to help her sort out her feelings, since you pushed her to this place.
I know it's not sexy, but neither is the story of someone leading on a girl who just wants some physical affection.
Maybe you haven't seen it this way, but the observations you make about what turns you on are followed by your feelings of revulsion to her, and it's coming off like you're the one making this thing weird.
Food for thought, perhaps.