[explorer98]

I've mentioned Barbara previously in other postings and I'm sure I will again. She was an exceptional and special lady in many ways and someone I developed deep feelings for and still think of almost daily despite the negative aspects which later emerged.

I'm good at this you see? I have a tendency to mentally edit out the bad bits and remember the things I liked. I really thought a lot of her and that was only tarnished by a couple of small details - like my discovery that she was a pathological liar and a serial sl*t. Other than that, things were great!

I could have handled her fucking around with other guys (we were both in relationships anyway - and she was married) were it not for the fact that her philandering went on to the extent that she couldn't remember who or how many she was fucking!

She didn't know that I had access to her email and when one of her 'suitors' emailed to chat with her, she told him she'd no recollection of who he was. His reply was to the point; 'I'm surprised by that! We met at ........., I caned you and fucked your arse. You seemed quite excited at the time.'

He wasn't the only one - and in the early days after we parted, I sometimes wondered about setting up a sort of 'Support Group' for her cast-offs - mostly just to get an idea of how many of us there were!!

Anyway, she continues to invade my thoughts and is responsible for some wonderful memories - some of which I've already related.

She was a classic example (I thought) of the un-appreciated wife. Her old man woke up at six, fucked her then left her to masturbate while her showered and went to work. She never came and most of the time, barely noticed he was in her. He had no idea who or what she was! I found her online and her submission was abundantly clear (to me at least) and I explored it.

I think she probably made such an impression on me because she was my first submissive that I hadn't 'made myself' in that she already knew what she was, she just needed encouraging and developing.

She was some 17-18 years older than me and she was lovely - small, blonde, sexy and as I found out a little later, had a body that women half her age would envy - every inch of her was well-cared for and gorgeous!

As I've said previously, she was around a foot shorter than me and less than half my weight so the physical control and domination she craved was easy to create. I could quite literally (and did!) throw her across the room and onto the bed and I could also carry her around impaled on my cock. That was a surprise - but fun!

There was no end to her charms. As I've said, she was immaculately presented in every respect. She had exceptionally pretty feet (and I LOVE pretty feet) wore vibrant red nail varnish and was always beautifully presented - even at work.

She was also delightfully obedient, totally submissive but had a wicked streak which she deployed from time to time to make sure she got what she wanted/needed. Sometimes it was just a word - but one calculated to provoke a desired response - and she knew exactly which buttons to push.

I could do things with her that I'd (at the time) only seen in porn and yet here was a real, live, delicious woman - suitably older, fabulously attractive and a lot of the time, completely naked in front of me - with whom I could do these things I'd only seen on a screen!

She could touch her elbows together behind her back (with a little appropriate force) and I could hold them there with one hand while I fucked her lovely, tight little arse from behind. THAT was pretty special - and I can't think that I've known another woman who could do that (though of course I've seen plenty).

For a small woman, she had quite large and 'chewy' nipples and on one occasion, while she was laying on the floor, I stood at her feet and pulled her upright using only her nipples to do so. She stayed completely straight throughout and her submission (despite the obvious pain) was remarkable.

She loved sex but she loved it to hurt - that was abundantly clear - and she was always curious to explore things she hadn't previously done but had seen, read or thought about.

There's more - but I just noticed how long this is getting - so I'll leave it here for now and if you're suitably interested, I'll probably still ramble but I can tell more another time?