No papers need to be served. But I need to make a few changes to our Orders. We are no longer married, its just child custody rights. Her drinking and drug abuse knocks her out of being a joint parent. She got a lot of issues to be worked out.
I'm still working on getting her out of my system. But - BUT because of our child and my empathy - which is a core part of my being, I want her back... I want us to restart something, maybe in the future. I don't know - I am not counting on it. She is still deep in the affair fog (i'm still in my own fog, but its barely there) which doesn't allow her to see clearly.
My brain says dump her, my heart says "I want to hold you".
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