[clitty]

I still love her.... but I need to real and let her go... How can I trust her, ever again anyway - right?

I've been going to AL Anon meetings. It is helping.

I see the things now, that have lead us to this place, I wish we could have done adjustments - talked more about issues and actually made the effort to make life changes.

Trust me, I'm venting here... but yeah, I've already made drastic changes to my life for the better and I need to continue moving forward.

Its been hard. I've been crying for what has been lost for the 3 of us. If she would have thought about our child and how its going to be a life-time BS for him and have us work together. We go have done something. She's not trying.

She is an alcoholic. I've been thinking more and more that she was lately. And now I know that for sure.
She needed help. I should have done more, but we both fucked up.

I gotta go. I need to get my shit together.