This day was special too because I think until that day, she had only been naked like this around me and Alicia together, and her mother guaranteed it was safe. I also had to be really careful where I looked when Alicia was there! Then when Alicia was uncomfortable with it, basically those moments stopped for a while. The only time she had been naked around me alone before this was that day when she needed my help in the tub. But that wasn't 100% voluntary. This was the first time she was choosing to be naked around just me. I couldn't really believe it, especially after the way things had been going lately. It had taken a long time to get to this...from her slowly opening up to feeling this comfortable. I think it also went from her trying to see how it would feel, sort of daring herself, to actually enjoying it, partly because she knew I was enjoying it. A lot of things were going through my head at that moment - was her mother going to know about this or was it just between the two of us? Was she just trying to get something out of me? Would it be better to put an end to this? How? Was she going to regret this later on or hold it against me? I was thinking too much so I figured I would just take let her take the lead and not push things one way or the other - just enjoy and trust her to know her own boundaries. She was old enough for that, and she was the one initiating. And I set my own boundaries too - just watch and don't even think about anything more. You gotta be conscious in these situations, it IS possible!
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