What doesn't come through in these stories is that we had a good relationship that was way bigger than these stories. We shared interests, humor, talked about life, family, etc, so Simone wasn't just a hot young body to me. We had developed trust and liked each other as persons and I played an important role in her life. I would not have ruined all of that...it's why she felt comfortable with me in the first place. it probably would've messed up her relationships in the future forever.
Also, a much as she enjoyed being seen by me, and we both seemed to look forward to that, she wasn't thinking about having sex with me. And even if the thought had crossed her mind for a brief second, she knew her mother would kill her! This was enjoyable to me in its own way, never knowing how much she would show, when, and how...and led to a different kind of intimacy. In the hotel room, she was probably doing what she would do if it was just her and her mother, or some friends, and I guess she just decided to take the leap and include me! It was very surprising and exciting but also felt sort of natural in some way....
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