1) I know enough of her history
2) She's been with 20-30 different guys
3) Eh, she was truthful, I guess. Doesn't really matter, now; can't change any of it
4) The numbers don't really matter; what bothers me are the details of what she's done.
5) We talk about her past sex life from time to time, but most of it is already in the open.
It's an interesting question the OP poses. I am not a prude, or a misogynist, or an insecure man who compares himself with the past lovers who stabbed their cocks into his wife. No, she is my best friend and our relationship is solid, so I'm not interested in making her feel guilty or ashamed. But, oh my gods: I am disgusted and fascinated by her prior life!! Every now and then I'll look at her and think: dozens of different men have had their cocks in her mouth, and she willingly sucked all of them. How many loads of semen has she swallowed? How many guys have decorated her face with cum? ....it makes me kind of sick..... I will watch her sucking on me and my mind will spin with the stories she's told; I will enter her pussy and groan at the pleasure and I know --I KNOW-- that plenty of other men have sheathed themselves likewise; and when I'm taking her from behind, I see her butthole and I know --I KNOW-- that five or six different guys have fucked her in the ass...... Difficult things to know, but if she didn't tell me that stuff, I would have bugged her until she, because I DO want to know.....
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