[stiv837]

I see many people have posted about me not being happy, and I thank you for your concern, but I'm very happy. I admit the last few weeks after our wedding incident were very stressful. I fuly admit I enjoy my wife sleeping with other men, I like to watch when I can, if I can't watch, I love when my wife gives me the detail's of her escapades. I wasn't upset that she left for a few days and spent them with her boyfriend, I was more concerned about her leaving me over her best friend. Her best friend who is definitely not worth risking my marriage for.

My wife and I have not had sex since the wedding, I'm am turned on by the thought of her cutting me off, but still fucking other guys. She asked me last night if I wanted to fool around, I told her no, maybe next weekend. She looked at me like I was crazy, so I told her about my enjoyment of being cut off. I told her next week would be about a month of me not cumming, and I would have a huge load to dump in her pussy or on her tits. Of course if I get lucky with Nikki on Tuesday," and I'm sure I won't" I will have to explain why I don't have as much cum built up as I thought I would, but I will deal with that when and if the time comes.

As far as my wife humiliating me, she never did it till I asked her to. She never complained about the size of my cock or my sexual skills. As a matter of fact she told me I am the best pussy eater she has ever know. I enjoy hearing her put me down when she is fucking someone else. I have even gotten to the point that when we are having intercourse, or she is giving me a hand job, when I want to cum, I tell her to tell me how worthless I am. As soon as she mentions how small my cock is or how much better other guys fuck her, I cum almost instantly. as I have gotten older it takes me a long time to cum, and this helps speed up the process a little bit. Other things that help me cum are when she sucks on her tits, or when she calls herself a dirty sl*t, or other similar names.

I have a new fantasy about my wife that I would like to mention to her, and maybe we could do some roll playing with it. This would be far to dangerous to try, because of legal reasons and health reasons.

I would like my wife to quit her job and be a prostitute, she could have her clients come to our house and service them there. Maybe if it worked out she could have a few other bored house wives join her and she could be their madam. This fantasy really turns me on, the thought of my wife getting paid for sex always gives me an instant hardon. We have way to much to lose if this fantasy would ever become reality. Although when we first got together, she did tell me she did consider having sex for money, one time when she lost her job, but found another job before she had to sell herself.

I know for people who don't understand my way of thinking, there is no way I can explain it so they will understand.
But please believe me when I say enjoy my life, my wife, my family, and even my job. Once again I thank you all for your concern and advice, and thank you for enjoying my posts, I love sharing my wife sexual adventures with you.