My nude performance on stage
 

Hi all,
I've posted about this experience on another site and someone told me about this forum and said that you may appreciate hearing about it. I am a woman at university and did this a bit over a year ago, pre-COVID. Before you ask, I'm not posting any pics. I don't want my family to see anything. (Sorry)

I've always been involved in school drama groups. I caught the bug in high school and when I came to university I quickly fell in with a group of like minded friends. Some of them had started an amdram group that was made up of all students but was not affiliated with the university. The group's goal was to put on risque, shocking, avante-garde performances - mostly plays. If I'm honest we spent more time hanging out, workshopping, and improving than performing. But every couple of months we'd develop a piece, usually written by one of the members and then perform it a few times at a local pub. There is a pub in town that has a stage for bands to play and they try to support the arts and are cool to let us use the stage for our performances if they didn't have a band booked.

Like I said, we try to be a bit shocking with the performances. So there's always adult themes, usually heavy on sex and nudity. The pub is chill about the nudity which is great. It's a lot of fun and we've developed a bit of a cult following - a few dozen people who never miss a show. We really push this "underground" vibe so there's an email list where we announce our shows, but you need an invitation to get on the list, etc. It works out because it's not like the venue is very big and it's not like we're making money on tickets. It's all just for fun.

Anyway enough of the intro, right before COVID hit, the last show we did wasn't a play but a performance art piece, which was a bit different for us. It's called "Puppets" and it's about how society forces individuals down violent and sexual paths. There are 5 of us on stage, 2 "puppets" and 3 posers (who represent society). There are 2 acts.

The first act is about violence. So the posers move the puppets into certain positions and the puppets have to hold perfectly still in those positions until another poser moves part of you. I was a poser in that act and it was 2 guys who were the puppets. So we would pose them with their hands on their hips, then clenching their fists, squatting in angry stances, we'd put ones hands on the others throat and so on. We'd try to move the puppets pretty quick from pose to pose so it never got boring. Of course it got more and more extreme as it went on with the puppets posing through a full on brawl. It's hard to describe, but it's actually really cool and the audience is like super into it as soon as it starts and there are some funny moments and some moments of danger, so the crowd loved it.

Then there was a brief break and we did the second act which was about how society sexualizes people. For this act I was one of the puppets along with a guy puppet and there were three posers (two guys and a girl). Well, each performance was a bit different because they would improv and riff on the different poses, but in general the theme was the same.

I would start off wearing kind of a flowy dress. The guy puppet was in pants and a tshirt. The posers would start us each out in a series of provocative poses. They would put me in doggy style, make me arch my back, open my mouth, roll me onto my back, spread my legs, make me grab my boobs, make the guy puppet hold his crotch, etc.

Then they would start stripping us and pose us in our underwear. They'd make the guy puppet hold my boobs and grab my ass. They'd put my hand on the bulge of his boxers which always got a gasp out of the crowd. Once they slid his hand in my panties. They'd keep putting us in crazy sexual positions. I have a dance background and good flexibility so they would have me in the splits, and doing other stuff. Then they'd keep stripping us, we'd do a bit with me topless and then they'd strip us so we were both fully nude.

Then they'd run us through a bunch of poses fully nude which was extremely revealing to the audience. They'd put me in doggy style with my legs spread and my back arched with my bare pussy lips and asshole in full clear view of the audience. It was so embarrassing when we were first doing it in rehearsals but it got me horny a hell. I ended up being so turned on the whole time.

Like I said the venue was small and people were right up against the stage, so they got an up close look at me. They could have reached out and touched me but no one ever did. By the way we did this performance three times and the third time the pub hit capacity and had to turn people away. I think word got out and people wanted to come see me naked haha.

Anyway so the posers would pose me and the guy puppet (I'll call him Andrew) together in all sorts of poses. And he was fully naked, too. Andrew would always get hard during rehearsals and we felt like we probably couldn't show at the pub. But we rehearsed it enough that he could mostly control it. And we had some tricks like if the posers saw him starting to get hard, they could shift positions so he could face away from the audience or hide it in some other way until he got it back under control. He also kind of learned the trick that I guess you if you jerk off right before the show it lets you stay soft for most of it.

But no matter what he would end up pressing his hard dick up against me at some point in the night. It was usually when they would lay him down on his back and then have me straddle him so my pussy was sitting right on his cock. I don't think he ever stayed soft for that part, but I was always wet by then so I can't really complain!

But the point of the whole performance is really to show how sexualized society makes us. With the posers representing the pressures of society. So they really got more and more extreme with the poses as the show went on. Like they would have me on my knees lifting my breasts in my hands and they would open my mouth and they would have Andrew stand in front of me holding his dick like inches from my face as if he was jerking off on me. Or they would put us in a 69 position and push my face down so his penis pressed against my nose and lips. Then push my butt down so my pussy was touching his mouth.

I think one of the guy posers had a foot fetish because he was always touching my feet and pointing my toes and even had my wrap my feet around Andrew's dick a few times. It's funny the girl poser was actually the horniest of the bunch or maybe the guys were holding back. But she would grab my hand and put it right on Andrew's cock. And of course I would just hold it there until one of the other posers moved it. Which would usually not be very long because of course Andrew would start to get hard.

The girl poser would also fold my fingers down so only my first two were extended and then slide them in between my labia. I think the most extreme thing she ever did during one of the live shows was when Andrew was on his knees, she slid my face under him, so I was staring at his butthole an inch away, then she picked up his dick from out of his hands and flopped it down against my cheek! It was pretty wild. He started to get hard pretty much right away, so one of the other posers pushed him so he was laying down on top of me with his hard cock across my face and his balls on my forehead. Haha I thought that thing would never go soft again, but I think stage fright is a powerful factor, too.

As the puppets, it was our job to just basically go with everything. They used our bodies as props and our job was to hold each pose perfectly still, which is actually extremely physically exhausting! I would be so tired after every performance! Let's just say there's nothing I didn't touch or have touched by the end of that show!

We went pretty extreme to sort of test the boundaries during the rehearsals but then avoided some of that during the live performances. We didn't want it to come off like we were staging a live sex show and didn't want the message to get lost. But fuck I would get so horny after each rehearsal a lot of times I would get myself off in the car before driving back home. And after we did it on stage in front of a live audience, I needed to be fucked. Fuck I'm wet just thinking about it.

I hate that we're stuck in this pandemic right now and can't wait to get back to performing more shows again! Anyway reminiscing about this show is the best I got right now and I love talking about it and thinking back to it. So I'd be happy to answer any questions you guys have. Thanks for reading!

This sounds amazing! When I lived in London I would often check out the live art scene and saw a great many performances involving young women (and others) doing artsy nudity. Even got to know some of them. But I always knew there was more edgy stuff going on that I would only find out about after it finished, this sounds not too far away from the kind of thing that went on at Duckys or the Royal Vauxhall Tavern. I guess other big cities in Europe and the US have their own scenes too.

Thanks! It was so much fun to perform! I am curious what were some of the edgier shows you saw or heard about? We are talking about what to perform next when things open back up and always looking for edgy ideas. To be honest now that I've done something this bold, I'm sort of addicted to the adrenaline rush and want to do another. So we're looking for ideas.

I'm so curious to hear about your interactions with Andrew outside of the performance space. How did this experience change your everyday interactions? Did you each have significant others and how did they feel about you performing together?

Fascinating and really great story!

Some Qs if that's cool...
1. You mentioned things went further in rehearsal, what are some of those situations?
2. What were the boundaries set in rehearsal? The things that were off limits. Were they ever broken during performance?
3. Did you find Andrew sexually attractive? If so, did you ever fantasise about having sex with him on stage during a performance? Obviously that's not the point of the performance but did you ever get to that point where you just wanted him inside you?
4. You say it made you horny, was that because you were being forced and controlled or because you were naked in front of others or some other reason?
5. This was obviously a big commitment to be controlled like that on stage in front of others, did you just jump in a the deep end or had past events led up to you being this brazen?
6. Did you have a boyfriend or girlfriend at the time? If so, how was their feeling about seeing you do this?
7. Did these unique experiences on stage change your sexual predilections in your personal life?

Thanks for sharing
 

Wow, thanks! One of the hottest stories I have read here in a while. You remind me of JaneTheBrain. She had lots of great theater stories too. Makes me wish I hung out with that crowd more when I was in college, but of course I never fit in with that crowd. But I would definitely been up for being a naked puppet!

Thanks again. Great story. Thanks for sharing.

I never saw an Anna L*iv Yo*ung show but I've seen The Famous Lauren Ba*rri Hols*tein and Urs*ula Mart*inez live, you can see their work on Vimeo etc. There was a show I went to called Liberation which was basically 5 performers rolling around in paint then using themselves to paint huge pieces of paper, the furniture, the walls, each other, etc. And I've seen lots of other dance-based stuff.

I haven't seen much in the way of audience interaction, but I've heard tales and seen a few video clips of performances in Europe that involved nude performers going into the audience, or audience members coming on stage and interacting with them. VERY rare is where audience members are persuaded to get nude. I saw an Or*eet Ash*ery piece where the performers dared people to undress but no-one (on the night I was there) went further than underwear.

I've written a paragraph with ideas but maybe I'll put those in a PM.

Wow, amazing story! Sounds like a really cool show! Really admire your courage to do that. Do you think you were an exhibitionist before? Or did you find you are after the show ran?

Wow, thanks for all the interest! I will try to answer all your questions. I'm excited to talk about this. It will take me a few posts.

First, I did not have a partner during the process of developing and performing the show. I have seen some people casually during my time at university but I have avoided getting into a committed relationship. It not what I'm looking for right now.

You guys asked about Andrew. He is straight and no, he did not have a girlfriend. Yes I definitely found Andrew sexually attractive. Andrew is a stud. He has a really nice body and if I'm honest a beautiful cock as well. And he has a great sarcastic sense of humor that I love. The girls are all over him to be honest.

I know he was super attracted to me as well. We talked about our physical attraction to each other and how it probably made for a better performance. I always felt like hooking up with him was inevitable, but I wanted to delay it until after the performances. I think the sexual tension we had really added to the show and I was really enjoying the whole process of developing the piece and I felt like we could have put that at risk if we had done something.

And then COVID hit. And we haven't really been in the same area since. And with a little time and perspective, I don't know. Part of me wants something bigger with him. But as I said I don't want to be in a relationship right now. I am really enjoying exploring this part of myself and I don't want jealousy and possessiveness to intrude (from either side). But I'm looking forward to seeing him again! And I really enjoy the thick sexual tension that exists when we are around each other. So we'll see what happens.

You asked about whether I just jumped into the deep end or did I have events that led me up to such a brazen performance. There were events that had led up to it.

Like I said I've been involved in this drama group for a bit. And we are all like minded - we want to put on edgy, boundary pushing shows that leave a lasting memory with the audience. Most of the shows have involved nudity of some kind - although most are plays rather than performance art pieces like this one was.

I had been involved in a few other productions where I had some amount of nudity or simulated sex. Nothing close to this level of exposure though. But I knew from those experiences that I had the guts to take my clothes off on stage and that I really got a thrill out of it.

So when we started talking about Puppets and what it would entail I was interested. When we first set out I think we envisioned a much tamer version of the performance to be honest. And then we just workshopped it every day during rehearsals and it evolved and took on a life of its own. If you had told us what the end product would look like when we started I don't think we would have believed you! lol

You asked about boundaries in rehearsals. I would say they were fluid. We didn't really set hard limitations but we were constantly testing and exploring new areas. Each rehearsal we'd kind of retread some areas that we'd covered before and then push into new things we hadn't tried before. Part of it was developing a flow and sequence that was really compelling and interesting and also graceful.

But we broke new ground during every rehearsal and that's what made it so exhilarating. I would always have butterflies wondering what was going to happen that night. Every time we would cross a new, bolder boundary there was this adrenaline rush and often a flood of arousal. The rush became addictive. The first time I was fully naked in front of my friends, the first time Andrew was naked, the first time he was erect, the first time I spread my legs and they could see my pussy lips, the first time they could see my asshole, the first time they made Andrew touch my breasts, my pussy, the first time they pressed our nude bodies together, the first time they put my hand on his cock, the first time they pressed his cock against my pussy lips and I could feel him getting hard against me, etc. We crossed these lines gradually over the course of a few weeks. And each time was thrilling.

I didn't want to do them all at once either. I wanted to savor it and draw it out - save some boundaries for the next rehearsal. I think we all wanted to let it develop organically like that. I'm telling you I spent the better part of a month in a constant state of arousal. I would come so quickly when I finally touched my clit.

After each run through we'd sit around and talk about what worked and what didn't work. Sometimes it was logistics. Like we realized to get me from doggy to laying on my back the two best ways were either to push me down so I was laying flat on my belly and then roll me over or move me up to my knees and then pull me back and to the side until I was laying down. We wanted 100% of my motions to be caused by the posers so tipping me over and having me flop from gravity did not look good.

And then sometimes we'd talk through what worked in terms of the level of eroticism. This sequence was too boring. Or this sequence was too much for Andrew stay in for long without getting an erection. We wanted the level of eroticism to build throughout the piece (just like the levels of violence in the brawl scene) to show the extremes to which society sexualizes us.

But we also wanted to audience to experience that same kind of rush as they saw each new boundary being crossed. I know some people were surprised when my top came off (I heard the gasps). And then we just kept pushing it to this extremely sexual place where Andrew and I were fully exposed and aroused and simulating aggressive, deviant sexual behaviors. We loved that every couple of minutes the audience would be like "holy shit" or you'd hear someone groan or something and you knew it was just blowing their mind over and over again. We wanted the audience to be fully aroused. We felt like that was the point and if the guys weren't rock hard and the women weren't dripping wet by the end of it then we kind of failed. (but don't worry we definitely succeeded there!) Honestly it was so hot to know that everyone in the audience was horny for us.

So we also talked about our own arousal. We decided since it was the point of the scene, that we should allow ourselves to be aroused as well. I was definitely aroused and the posers were too. One of the posers (Colin) who was a puppet during the brawl would always pitch a tent, especially when he would pose my feet. But poor Andrew. We thought it would be too much for him to play the scene with an erection, so he had to fight it and we had to devise ways to hide it. I feel like he had to suffer because of that in a way that the rest of us could just relax and enjoy it. But he didn't seem to mind.

So you ask about whether we broke boundaries that we had set in rehearsal during the performance. It was kind of the other way around. We developed a massive amount of trust with each other. And so we did things that were fairly extreme in rehearsal that we knew we couldn't or wouldn't do in front of an audience. It was all about figuring out where we wanted the boundaries of the show to be. Like I said we didn't want to turn it into a sex show and felt like the message would be lost if felt like porn.

But we did push things much further during the rehearsals and you asked about those scenarios. I'll share an example. For the first week or so during rehearsals we practiced with clothes on - both in our underwear. After that, we knew we had to get comfortable with the nudity, so we one day we went for it.

Well for the next couple weeks we encountered a real problem because, Andrew just couldn't stay soft. I understood of course and it was flattering but we would pause and wait for him to get himself under control before we continued. And it was just taking forever and some days we wouldn't make much progress. We were beginning to wonder if the whole thing would work at all and maybe we'd have to play it with clothes on or scrap the idea altogether.

So one rehearsal I told him let's just keep going with it - thinking it would maybe make him sort of get used to it faster. Well it had the opposite effect. So we played the next 30 minutes or so with him erect and he just kept getting harder and harder and he was throbbing.

And the girl poser (Lucy) took full advantage of this and played the scene to highlight his erection. On the one hand we had talked about maybe playing the performance with him erect for moments here and there, so I think she was just trying to workshop different poses we could use in that scenario. And on the other hand I think she was really turned on and just wanted to keep pushing it. (Lucy had a crush on Andrew, she admitted to me)

So she wrapped my fingers around his erection and made me hold his balls like I was jerking him off (of course I held perfectly still). She put his erection in my cleavage and had me smush by boobs around his cock like I was giving him a titjob. She made him hold his erection and laid it gently against my lips (this is where I could tell he was throbbing). Honestly the difference in eroticism to play some of these positions that we had done many times with him erect vs when he was soft was really staggering. And poor Andrew was in terrible shape because he was so turned on but also there was no stroking - we were just holding still in all these poses.

At one point they had me on my back and him on his knees and my legs were on his shoulders and his erect cock was between my thighs and that's when he came. It was like spurt after spurt on my belly and all the way up to my boobs.

Andrew was so embarrassed! I actually felt really bad for him. But damn it was hot. I've thought about that many times in private. And Lucy was like, well I was just going to keep going until you climaxed so it was going to happen one way or another haha.

By the way eventually he started jerking off right before rehearsals. So he managed to stay soft longer. But he still got hard every time. But it did seem easier to control once he started doing that. Again he was embarrassed to admit that but he didn't need to be. Knowing that my body was making him so hard was always such a turn on for me.

Be nakey for us!
 

Great story Meg!

Okay, I'm just gonna suggest it if nobody else will! Share some nudies of yourself with us :)!!! Not from the performance, of course.

I saw you said in your opening thread "don't ask, I don't want my family to see." What about completely censoring your face first, and the pic not being from the performance itself. No one will ever know it's you!

...just an idea. (I know - a really unique one).

Certainly no worries if not...had to ask though!

That sounds like beautiful agony for Andrew!

well meg 2001 . Nice write up thank you

if you could turn the clock back . Would you have done the nude scenes.

Or would you of not done them .

Did you have the butterflies and the nerves after the show when the penny dropped you had been nude in front of every one .
Or was it the feeling I've done it . An done it well . It all worked out .

Then would you do it again

Jackpiker - Do I regret it? No. If I could go back, would I do it again? Absolutely. And I’m sure I will be nude on stage in some form or another again. I thoroughly enjoyed the experience. And as I said, the rush is a bit addicting. I definitely feel the rush at the moment of exposure or at the moment that a new threshold is crossed. After the show - no butterflies or nerves. More like a euphoric feeling. Can’t stop smiling. Often very aroused. But lots of good feelings.

Duran Duran asked about why it made me horny and whether it changed my sexual predilections in my personal life.

What turns a person on is such a complex and multi layered thing. It's easy to know that you feel aroused, but to dive deeper and understand why, is this really exciting sexual exploration / journey. So maybe I don't have it all figured out but here's what I know.

Part of it is a power dynamic. Your body and your poses are making a crowd of people hungry with arousal. Their desire for you. They want to come up on that stage and fuck you. In that moment, their carnal lust for your flesh trumps everything. To be so extremely desired by so many people (men and women) is a very powerful feeling and one that I find extremely arousing.

But the other end of the power dynamic in this case is that I'm vulnerable. I'm helpless. I'm at the complete mercy of the posers. When you give up control of your body for an extended period of time like that, you really start to inhabit the role of the puppet. I know it sounds weird. But you become fully committed. I became a puppet. I only moved from the posers and in the moment I would have let them do anything. They could have taken Andrew's erection and penetrated me with it and I would have let it happen. Someone asked if I wanted that to happen - sometimes I most definitely did. Of course it never did and we had huge amounts of trust with each other. But somehow giving up control, even just in mindset, was incredibly arousing for me.

I think I'm an exhibitionist, but maybe a weird kind of one. I don't want to just be sl*tty and flash my tits at someone. What's cool about the performance is that there's artistic merit to it. (I truly believe that we did more than just titillate the crowd and that our message was thought provoking) But beyond the art of it, it was also the posers who were in control and so it sort of gives me permission to enjoy being on display while absolving my responsibility for it. I'm not on display for the purpose of my own arousal, I'm on display for these other reasons and my arousal is just a side effect.

I saw another post here about fashion models showing their pussy lips on the catwalk as the model lingerie. That's really hot to me and I would love to do that. But I have no desire, in fact I find it a turn off, to think about flashing my boobs at a party or posting nudes of myself online. It just feels cheap somehow and takes the eroticism out of it for me. So, sorry pball2295, I don’t have any desire to post a nude of myself here. But if you happen to see the performance, I would love to show you every inch of me.

I think maybe I'm also interested in exploring a submissive side to sex. I don't feel that I'm naturally submissive as a personality - at all really. But the power dynamic of dominance and submission can be quite erotic I think. Maybe I'd like to explore both sides of that.

Did they make you get STD tests beforehand?

Assuming this story is real....

Who is "they"? No. We are just a group of friends that formed an amateur drama group and found a venue to perform at. So "they" don't make us do anything.

Powerful
 

Andrew may have been embarrassed afterwards. But, that type of orgasm, with no thrusting, just the eroticism of the situation, is very very powerful. He would have felt enormous pleasure as his cock was spurting. Don't feel too bad for him.

Just curious Meg, given that you've said you have exhibitionist tendencies, what is it about flashing your tits at a party or posting a nude online that feels non-erotic? Is it that it's a very easy to do, anyone can do it, and it feels sloppy rather than elegant?

I'm genuinely curious - not being combative in any way. In part, I'm asking because my inclination is (I think) to feel the opposite of you! Art and performance just isn't very erotic to me. It's...artistic. I prefer nudity when it's fun, sexy, revealing, and taboo. Nudity doesn't feel like those things in art to me.

Granted, I can completely understand why the situation you described was a turn on for you, Andrew, and everyone else. Just not quite sure I understand why the other forms of exhibitionism you described are an explicit turn off, because they seem in the same exhibitionist family.

Finally in case it isn't clear, this not me trying to convince you to post nudes lolol. I think I just find where you draw the lines to be surprising.

Do you have a desire to be naked in front of others again?

Hmm like I said sometimes it's easier to know that you are turned on or off than it is to know why. But it's not about sloppy vs elegant. I think the things I mentioned as turn offs don't work for me because they make me feel sl*tty.

I think it comes down to reason for the exposure. If someone accidentally sees me nude through the curtain of a changing room, that's a turn on. If I get caught in the rain and my shirt becomes sheer and people see, that's a turn on. If I'm having sex and a roommate walks in and sees me in the act, that's a turn on.

But if I am the one orchestrating my own exposure, for the sake of my own arousal, the whole thing backfires. I think there's a deep shame and guilt associated with being sl*tty for me. So I need a trick of the brain to avoid that getting in the way.

So when I was a puppet, in a nude performance art piece, with other people posing and exposing my body, it allowed me to be completely free from that guilt and shame. I wasn't showing this crowd my pussy lips so it would turn me on. Someone else was showing them my pussy lips for the sake of this intellectual artistic message about society. And the fact that it turned me on was a wonderful side effect that I could enjoy without interference.

I don't know if that makes sense or not but it's the best I can describe it.

Yes I definitely do. And I’m positive I will do it again. The question is: do we develop a different show (we are looking at a variety of plays) or do we revive Puppets and see if there’s more work to do with that. Colin and Lucy want to keep going with Puppets. (It’s easy for them because they aren’t naked, haha). I have mixed feelings about it.

Part of me wants a role in an edgy drama where I have dialogue and character development. Acting is the reason I got involved in this group to begin with. But so far the plays we’ve looked at are too tepid. This is where I ask for your help - if you guys know of any really edgy, boundary pushing plays, I would love to hear about them. We are thinking about developing our own script based on La Ronde. We would update it and modernize it and could stage it as bold as we wanted. I think our troupe has developed a bit of a shock reputation, which we like, but it seems hard to find material out there to perform.

If we do continue with Puppets, we might move it out of the pub to a different venue. Colin really wants to take it to Fringe but I don’t think anything like that is going to happen this year.

But if we continue with Puppets, we’d want to develop it further. We really only had a month or so of work on it. One of the things we thought was to introduce props. We didn't have enough rehearsal time to develop that fully so we didn't end up including it.

I know you guys are less interested in it, so I don’t focus on it, but in the violence scene (which is half the performance) Colin is a puppet and has this superhuman ability to balance and hold still. Which works to great effect, but we thought to introduce some elements of “danger” where he is posed on top of unstable things where a fall would be consequential.

What we found in both the violence and sex scene is that the key to holding the audience’s attention was creating tension. So for the sex scene that tension was created by the audience wondering how far something might go. Threaten to cross a boundary, creating tension around it and then pushing past it to the next one.

At the start, no one knew (for sure) we were going to be nude. So we created tension around the undressing. Are they going to take her bra off? The poser would tease it, unhook my bra but not remove it. Pose my arms in a way that the bra was still there, dangling loosely and everyone is wondering, am I going to catch a glimpse of nipple? Then off it comes and you’re teasing the next boundary. Later, oh my god, they put her hand so close to his bare cock. Is that planned or accidental? Are they going to make her touch it? Then, boom here they are wrapping my fist around it. But what makes it compelling is the lead up, the tense can’t-look-away, holding-my-breath, oh-my-god-are-they-really-going-to, then - boom - the payoff. And then escalating, doing it over and over and over.

So back the idea of introducing props, here were some of the things we tried. We talked about a condom - one fun thing we rehearsed was if (when) Andrew got hard during a performance, instead of turning the pose to hide it, we would have Lucy unwrap a condom and make a show of putting it on him. Only then we would turn him and hide it. But it might get a laugh and would introduce this extra level of tension with the audience like is he going to penetrate her now that he has a condom on?

We looked at clothespins - I wasn't sure how much I wanted to endure pain on top of everything else. The other guy poser (Glenn) was really into this idea and other things like it. I just don’t know. We never tried it in a rehearsal. I supposed if we revive the show we’d try it during rehearsal and see how it went.

We thought about a dildo - not necessarily for penetration, but the added tension of just seeing that on stage would be great. The audience would certainly be wondering "will they or won't they." We rehearsed with one once. It led to some great poses. Like me in doggy, back arched, Andrew kneeling next to me, grabbing my hair in his fist, threatening to penetrate me with the dildo in the other hand. Then Lucy put a condom on the dildo and then she slathered it with lube. I know this was a great way to create tension because the butterflies in my stomach were going crazy. Something about preparing the dildo for entry made it feel more real, like maybe she’s going to do this. All she’d have to do is push his hand forward. Then she made me hold the dildo and made Andrew stand up and bend over with his hands on the ground. I could see the look of fear in his eyes haha. So I don’t know where we’d go with it, like I said we only workshopped with it in once rehearsal, but just having the dildo prop in play added this palpable threat of penetration.

Lucy wanted to introduce a vibrator. I was sure that if there was a vibrator involved I would climax on stage. And I wasn't sure I was ready for that to be honest. Plus I felt like there's no way I could hold still during that so it would break the illusion.

We rehearsed with a blindfold once. It was weird just holding still and not being able to see. The posers said it would have an interesting impact on the audience though. Because the idea is like does this puppet even know what's happening or about to happen to them.

But here’s where I ask for your help again - do you guys have any interesting ideas for props that we could try? Or interesting ways to use a prop to introduce tension?

Do I ramble on in my posts? Sorry if they are too long, don’t want to bore you.

I does make sense. One of the things people write about on this forum is "plausible deniability." Men talk about their wives or girlfriends showing off their bodies, but being able to deny it was intentional (and in some cases it probably wasn't). For example: "I didn't know my swim suit was transparent when wet," or "I didn't realize people could see into our room when I was walking around naked."

In your case it was the posers that were making you expose yourself, which, as you say, absolved you from any guilt. I'm glad to hear it was a turn on for you in any case. Thanks for posting!

Actually, that explanation makes a ton of sense Meg. It would have been fine if you couldn't put your finger on it...but that was a pretty interesting self-analysis. Needless to say, I think sl*t shaming (and self-sl*t shaming) is a societal travesty...ultimately born out of patterns of male insecurity and embedded patriarchy. But I imagine, as a woman, even if you know intellectually it's bullshit...stuff like that is deep seated.

And if you get a kink out of exhibitionism because of it, shit, might as well take full advantage! I will say, I do loveeee the pussy lips on a runway scenario.

Sidenote (anyone can chime in here)...What I find super interesting about this little online community you stumbled into is while most of the men here are pretty kinky...and potentially (definitely) a bit sexually supressed...I've been super impressed with the genuine level of class and respect usually exhibited by men on this site. Like...me asking you to post nudes of yourself is just about as disrespectful as it gets here, lol. Pretty far cry from other sex inspired places. And I'm not man hating at all..just being real.

Anyway, sorry to get all nerdy amidst your hot stories. Onward!

Meg, could you tell us more about your interactions with the audience during the performance and afterwards? Did you tend to make eye contact with people? What other kinds of reactions did they have?

How many were strangers, acquaintances, friends? What was the energy like in the room after it was over? Did you hang around with audience members afterwards, and did it lead to any hookups? Did you ever have sex after a show?

1) Whip cream
2) Chocolate sauce
3) A banana. Or maybe a cucumber.
4) Something sticky. Scotch tape, parcel tape etc
5) Rope
6) A cowbell
7) Christmas decorations - tinsel, baubles
8) A paddle, or a birch tree branch
9) Ping pong balls
10) A toy gun with the word "CHECKOV" written in large visible letters.

Just in case anyone PM'd me and hasn't gotten a reply. It keeps saying I can only send 2 PMs every 12 hours.

So answers to your PM questions:

1. Spanish
2. No, I didn't because I require some friction and there is frustratingly little rubbing during the still poses. I almost always did afterwards though.
3. Yes, they would open our mouths and even pose our tongues. Andrew and I did touch tongues and I had many of my body parts placed in his mouth and the other way around. But remember the poses were still, so there wasn't exactly "kissing" or "sucking".
4. I think I said it before but his obsession with my feet. He was always pointing my toes, pressing my feet up against something or other, putting my toes in Andrew's mouth. It didn't bother me though.
5. Straight but open minded and experimental.

Try to match your question to the answers above haha.

Thanks Dave! You have been quite helpful and I appreciate you taking the time to brainstorm suggestions. :)

Some of your ideas sound quite fun to play with, but might be problematic in practice. The thing that's easy to forget is that our poses are still. I mean, with three posers there is always constant motion and some element of one of the puppets is being moved. But I wonder if a cowbell or ping pong ball might require movement by the puppet to really come to life. Maybe I am lacking imagination.

And if a poser put whipped cream or chocolate syrup on me, Andrew couldn't lick it off. At best it would get smeared around and remain for the rest of the performance. Perhaps that's still interesting although I wonder if coating our bodies in oil at some point during the sequence might achieve the same effect in a more aesthetic way. I think the glistening of oil could add something and it would be interesting to see what kinds of poses might be enhanced by the slippery effect.

My favorite from your list is rope! In fact I am quite intrigued by the idea that the puppets could be bound in various ways. We definitely included themes of dominance and submission in the poses. We go through a sequence with Andrew grabbing a fistful of my hair while I'm on my knees, his hand on my neck, me posed like I'm going to take a facial with my tongue out, holding my breasts, etc. I wonder what it would be like to introduce rope. My hands tied behind my back, or my ankles tied to my thighs. Or even having Andrew and I bound together in interesting poses. I am no expert in bondage, but I have a feeling Glenn (one of the guy posers) would be really excited to run with that idea.

Thanks again!!

I love your ramblings, I always like hearing about a woman's side of exhibitionism.

11) A selection of masks (animal masks, carnivale masks etc)
12) A polaroid camera
13) A large roll of blank paper
14) A hessian sack
15) A box of donuts
16) A mattress
17) A cool-box of ice cubes
18) A lady's silk scarf
19) A chamber pot
20) An electric razor

Might I suggest candles? With still poses they still have the action of wax falling and that might be interesting to play with (as well as the danger of fire)

First Time Danced on Stage
 

My husband asked me to recall for you my first time to dance on stage for a group. It wasn't in a strip joint or club. Instead, it was at a biker rally on a make-shift stage on a 5th wheel toy hauler trailer. The trailer owner had lowered his back door and set up a stage with a stripper pole. I had been drinking all afternoon and evening. Initially, I had been recruiting ladies from the audience to get up and strip on the stage. Some did and some didn't. I was about 40% successful in my recruiting, but for some reason as the evening wore on fewer women wanted to get on stage. Then one of the ladies that had already stripped about three times grabbed me out of my chair and pulled my fishnet top off, and pulled me on stage with her. I danced with her on the pole for a short while, and then she left me up there by myself. The guys in the audience were all whooping and calling out for me to take my little bikini shorts off. I was commando that evening and was reluctant to drop the shorts and dance naked. Finally, my song was over and I had only pulled my shorts down to expose my ass, but no pussy during that dance. I was glad when the song finished, and I was able to climb down off the stage. However, with all the guys hollering, clapping and whistling for my dance, I felt somewhat empowered by it and hot at the same time.

After a few more girls had danced, the boyfriend of the woman that had pulled me up on the stage the first time, grabbed me out of my chair and said, you are going to dance on the pole with me. I was still just in my shorts with no top on. He got me up on stage. He was just wearing a pair of jeans with no shirt. We started out by sliding around the pole in opposite directions. Initially. I was facing in toward the pole and would dip under his arm as we crossed paths. However, after a while I turned out toward him and would rub my tits across his bare chest as we passed. Then he started rubbing my tits with his hands each time we passed one another. Then I reached down and pulled my shorts down below my ass and rubbed that hot ass against his package still buried in his jeans. I don't remember whether I then pulled my shorts down to my feet or if he did it, but soon my shorts were down around my ankles. I stepped out of them and he tossed them to my husband in the crowd. Then we continued twirling around the pole with me naked, and he continued by feeling my tits, ass and pussy with each revolution around the pole. I began to realize that we had danced through three songs since i first hit the stage. But before we stopped, someone painted my tits with chocolate syrup, and my dancing partner dropped down and licked those tits clean. The crowd went wild. I was so drunk that I was having trouble standing up and twirling on that pole. We had several more trips circling around the pole, but I think my studly guy realized that I was about to fall down, so he helped me back to my chair.

By the time I was escorted back to my chair, I was so hot, I was about to squirt. I was still nude. I told my husband that I better get back to our motor home. He was O.K. with that. As we started to walk away, my dancing partner pulled up with a golf cart and told us to get in and he would carry us back to our motor home. I think my husband was happy to see the cart, because he was afraid that he might have to carry me back to the motor home. As we got out of the motor home, my dancer guy was telling us how hot I was and how he was getting stone aches from having danced with me. He said that he could sure use some relief from those aches. I turned and asked my husband if he cared if i helped him out. He agreed to let me. It took both my dancer guy and my husband to get my naked body up the stairs into that motor home. Once I was in there, I laid back on the couch and said that I was too drunk to give my dancer a head job, and that he would just have to fuck me there on the couch. He slipped off those jeans and exposed a really good sized erect dick. He climbed on me and proceeded to pump away. I remember getting one climax before he ever came, but then I think I passed out before he was finished. My husband tells me that before he was all done, I had gotten three climaxes. All I know is that I was a little sore the next morning and didn't recall anything after that initial climax. But that is the story of my first stage dance and strip. It was a lot of fun, and I did feel empowered with all those guys hollering and whistling for me. I hope i can do it again sometime in the future.

Meg

My top suggestion would be "A Thought in Three Parts" by Wallace Shawn. Proper writing from a well-known playwright, but denounced in Parliament after protests when put on at London's Royal Court Theatre in the 1970s, and I think it has only been performed once since in the UK. I went to that revival, by a student group at Battersea Arts Centre in 2002; it remains easily the most explicit piece of quality theatre I have seen on stage (with one exception, which is another story).

The long second act - the majority of the play - involves a prolonged orgy of sexual experimentation among four students in a hostel dormitory. There's no way of portraying it demurely - the actors are naked from the moment the exceedingly shy Bob manages to ask Judy to undress and masturbate for him. But you can decide how far to push the boundaries: at Battersea it was half-under, half-on top of the bedcovers, but I think the scene where Helen invites the two boys to compete to see how high up her chest they can squirt was probably faked... There are reviews online of more recent productions by Rubber Repertory in Austin and Yale University which will give you a good idea.

In return, can I ask how the nudity in your own production was first broached? How did you or Lucy decide which of you was going to be the naked female? Was Lucy disappointed or relieved? Or was the nudity only decided on once you'd taken the role - in which case was it your idea, or did someone pluck up the courage to ask you - or just try stripping you? Was the request matter-of-fact or a big deal; your choice, or something expected of you as an actor? How did you and the group react to the knowledge that they were going to see their friend naked for the first time?

Jobin

Thanks again! I enjoy your ideas.

You say a polaroid camera, but a digital camera could be quite interesting. What if we had one poser with a digital camera (or phone). They go around the scene taking provocative pictures of our poses and we project the most recent photo on a big screen on the stage. It could have a few added benefits.

First, the camera will be able to get close ups and project things large on the screen that members of the audience would otherwise be unable to see - especially if they are not right up close to the stage. We could introduce a bit more subtlety in some of the poses where the details would otherwise be lost. We do a bit with me in doggy style, Andrew pulling my ass cheeks apart and having his face pushed up into my parts. With a camera projecting onto a screen, I think you could introduce more tension. He spreads my cheeks, then the poser pulls out his tongue. Get a picture of his outstretched tongue an inch from my holes. Push his head forward, maybe see his tongue touching my cheek. Maybe more I don’t know we’d have to rehearse it. But a lot of those small details are lost without the close up of a camera.

Second, I wonder if it triggers a more sexual response from the viewers. Imagine a pose where Andrew is on his back, I am on all fours over him, his fist is holding the base of his cock and my fist is wrapped around his, my mouth is open, my tongue extended and two inches from the head of his penis. When you see that in the performance, it’s of course highly sexual, but not mistaken for a blowjob. You see our bodies morphing into that pose and holding still as they move different parts of ours.

Now imagine a picture of that pose projected on a big screen. Because it’s a moment in time, I wonder if it tricks the brain into thinking this is a frozen moment from a moving scene. You are used to seeing pictures in porn that you know what happens next, so I wonder if the brain sort of fills in the gaps and interpolates the motion. What do you guys think?

Or what about the idea of audience participation! We have two phones. We run through poses for about half the time, then we bring up a male and female audience volunteer. Then we let them take whatever shots they want with the camera and they are broadcast on the screen (side by side).

We could label which is the guy’s phone vs the girls. It would be interesting to look at the gender differences. Do you think the guy volunteer would take extremely explicit pictures of my genitals? Would the female volunteer focus more on the shapes of our bodies, facial expressions? Andrew? Would be an interesting psychology experiment.

Of course I don’t know how to hook up a phone to a screen like that but I’m sure it could be done. I like the idea of projecting pictures, rather than video. For some reason I just feel it would make the already still poses come to life more - paradoxically.

Then of course there is the matter of the pictures! I would certainly want them destroyed after every performance. Or maybe I would just want to own them myself so they didn’t fall into the wrong hands. In fact I would love to see what we look like from a voyeurs point of view. I might enjoy some alone time with those pictures haha and save them as keepsakes.

What do you guys think of this idea? Do you think it would add something?

Candles are a great idea!! Thank you for your suggestion!

I think it actually can introduce quite a bit of drama. Imagine a poser lights a long stemmed candle then places it in Andrew’s hand. The poser moves Andrew’s other hand directly over the flame, far enough away that we have rehearsed and know it is safe but close enough that the audience is worried. They leave it there and pose me.

Maybe they pose me with my feet on the floor, knees bent, bum on the floor. My back is arched severely, elongating my abdomen, nipples pointing to the sky, my head is on the floor - almost the top of my head and I’m looking upside down away from my body. Arms flat on the floor for balance. Sorry this is a hard position to describe but it’s a beautiful shape and it leaves me quite vulnerable in the midsection and also (importantly) not able to see my body.

Then they move Andrew and he holds the candle tilted above my body. They can continue to pose different parts of us, but as the candle burns hot wax drips down and lands on my body.

What’s exciting about this is that the timing of the drips is unpredictable and I can’t see them coming. And if I flinch, then I’ve broken character, so I really need to be able to take the hot wax without flinching. But the audience is wondering where the wax will hit me and if I’m going to flinch or gasp. The posers can decide if they position the candle above my tummy, my breasts, my groin, etc, they can make Andrew hold it in his mouth, etc escalating as they go.

Of course I have to figure out if I can do this without flinching. Maybe I’ll do some homework. I also wonder if the height that the wax drips from affects the temperature (maybe more time to cool through the air). Maybe I’ll have some wine and burn myself tonight haha.

Thanks for sharing your story! I’m glad you had a good experience, certainly sounds adventurous. I do think female nudity can be empowering when you retain control. I’m a bit sorry to hear that you were so drunk and your husband let the guy fuck you while you were passed out. But I’m glad in the end you felt it was a fun experience!

Thank you so much for the suggestion! It sounds like a great play!

I googled it and found that Wallace Shawn is the guy from the Princess Bride. Inconceivable! Haha, sorry. I read some reviews and it does sound intriguing. I’ll see if I can hunt down a copy of the script.

I’ll try to answer your questions about how the nudity came about. The amdram group I’m in has a reputation for and really a focus on provocative material. Before this we’ve only done plays, this is the first performance art piece. But all the plays were edgy, typically short-form pieces that we had developed on our own.

Not everyone who’s in the group has been nude yet, but I think it’s widely understood that any play and any role might involve nudity. If you’re not comfortable with that idea then you wouldn’t join the group. Or maybe we are all uncomfortable with the idea but confronting that discomfort is the reason we’re in it. Either way when we’re considering or developing a new piece, it’s always something that’s looming. And not just nudity, but what is going to be required of you to really deliver this performance that is going to be memorable and shocking for the audience. I think we all are interested to try to push ourselves beyond our comfort zone and so far everything we’ve done has been pretty rewarding.

So when the idea for Puppets was first discussed, the guy who presented it had thought it through a lot. And he proposed this piece about societal pressures and puppets and posers. We know from the beginning that sex and violence were going to be strong themes. And we knew from the beginning that we wanted it to be bold, provocative, memorable.

I was interested and volunteered right away. At the time I wasn’t sure what my role would be but I have caught the bug so to speak and want to be involved. Initially we all took turns with both roles and just did improv and experimentation where we would fluidly switch from puppet to poser and back. 6 of us (at the time) rehearsing at once was chaotic but we were starting to understand what worked and what didn’t. There was no nudity involved yet, but we all knew that would likely come.

Over the course of about a week a few things quickly became clear:
1. We needed to separate sex and violence into two different acts. Trying to incorporate them together was too interruptive and made it harder to follow the escalating narrative flow we wanted to achieve.
2. We needed to have dedicated puppets and posers. Switching between the two took away from the impressiveness of the feat of the puppets. I don’t know if it’s obvious but it’s incredibly physically challenging to hold certain positions still for extended periods of time. And the idea that you could just switch to a poser when your arm got tired took away some of the awe.

Because of my dance background it was quickly suggested that I be a puppet. I have good flexibility and balance and can hold interesting shapes for long periods of time. We decided that we wanted the violence act to be between two guys - we considered alternatives, but introducing gender into the equation we felt would be a distraction from the central message. And for the sex act, we debated two female puppets but again felt like the core message was about sexualization of individuals by society, not LGBTQ and keeping a traditional guy/girl pairing made that more focused. So I sort of fell into the role of the female puppet in the sex act because it just made the most sense

I think Lucy was a bit relieved but honestly she is also quite clever as a poser. It’s really up to the creativity of the posers to make sure that the act is engaging and she is full of innovative ideas. She is also quite horny and I think she got off on the idea of making Andrew and I do things. She admitted to a crush on Andrew and she is also bisexual, but that is neither here nor there.

Anyway I signed on to be the female sex puppet knowing that we wanted to include some level of nudity in the performance. I certainly did not imagine I would spread myself explicitly in front of the audience for extended periods of time. I said it before but it was just constant butterflies knowing I was going to be nude, and doing bold things, but now knowing how far we would go with things. But I sort of enjoy those butterflies, the knot in the stomach, the whole thing is a rush for me and that’s part of why I like to do it.

And from there it all just developed organically. We eased into the nudity over a number of rehearsals. It was quite thrilling and nerve wracking the first time my bra came off, the first time my panties slid down, etc. We didn’t really talk in advance about it (never said, like, today’s rehearsal I am going to take your panties off). We just tried more and more each time.

My consent was really my complicity. If I didn’t want the poser to strip me, expose me in a certain way, or have Andrew touch me in a particular place, I was always free to move or stop. But I never did. As I’ve said before we developed this trust. I think they knew not to take things too quickly for me and I was open to try slightly bolder things each time.

I remember the second rehearsal where I had been stripped fully nude, I was laying flat on my back, Lucy pulled my knees up so my feet were on the floor. Then she slowly started to spread my knees apart. I knew this meant that I would be exposing my vagina to everyone in the group for the first time. I can’t describe the mix of adrenaline, anxiety, arousal, and excitement that the moment had for me but I let her do it. It was intoxicating. And for the better part of a month, each rehearsal held many such moments. Each time we crossed a new boundary.

There was a lot of sexual tension in the air through all the rehearsals. We were striving for eroticism and we definitely all felt aroused by the experience. We talked about that and gave ourselves the allowance to be aroused. I think in most such productions there is this sort of faux professionalism denial - “it’s just a part I’m playing but it’s not at all arousing to me personally”. We sort of broke that down in this piece and said the objective here is this message of sexualization and eroticism. We want the audience to be aroused by what they see. And therefore we want to allow ourselves as performers to explore our own desires and fetishes.

It was a safe space for us to all explore the essence of arousal together. I think that gave Glenn the freedom to acknowledge and explore his foot fetish - and that was good because it’s a real thing in society. Similarly we played with themes of masturbation, domination, submission, exhibitionism, role play, degradation, lust, etc. Because those are all authentic reflections of sex in society.

And I think that’s why I feel like it’s okay for me to talk about this in the way I have here. Because we talked about it with each other and we acknowledged that we were all aroused by the whole thing.

It wouldn’t have worked to sit down at the beginning of each one and say - well today I’m going to try to put your hand on Andrew’s penis for the first time. They were just things that we experimented with spontaneously in the moment. And I think not knowing what was coming made it so much more exciting for me and to some extent I think that’s the experience the audience has as well.

We did always talk about things afterwards. Share our thoughts on what worked the best and what didn’t. What turned us on the most or what made us uncomfortable. So I could say things like I don’t think I want my anus in view for such an extended period of time haha. But we would sort of take the best bits from each night and then slowly developed a sequence and flow that we would begin to follow, introducing new things along the way.

Excuse the extended ramble but I wanted to try to give you a sense for how it came about. Feel free to ask any more questions!

I love all your ideas. I wish I could see this play! The idea of not being able to see the wax drip is really smart and adds a lot of tension to the performance.

I miss my college days when performances like this were more easy to find. I would t know how to find one post COVID even though I’m on the younger side (I suspect we may be the same age)

I love all your ideas. I wish I could see this play! The idea of not being able to see the wax drip is really smart and adds a lot of tension to the performance.

I miss my college days when performances like this were more easy to find. I would t know how to find one post COVID even though I’m on the younger side (I suspect we may be the same age)